I'm bored.

We've both admitted we've got no more sparks for each other. He's got no motivation to try to fix or improve our relationship, because according to him, he's been in this stage for years and I've only just reached here. Long story short, he's given up. On us. On me. I've given 'permission' for an open relationship, which pretty much a permission for a 2nd wife. But I might divorce him. But I'll lose H. 

What did I tell you, silly girl?

They are all lies. Nothing lasts. Love isn't real. Happiness is an illusion. 

But shield H. Lie to him. Mayhaps if he grew up believing differently, he could have it differently.  

Perhaps.  

One can wish. One can dream. 

*empty laughs*