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Gosh, I don't know if all the good things are happening to me right now, or if they are all the bad things. First, there are the two subjects I'm taking: they seem very easy, but they're supposed to be advanced subjects. But I'm not quite sure what's the 'advanced' part that I'm learning here. And the assignments? Man, I haven't even had the midterms yet...

Then, there's my writing. Okay, that's the good part actually, getting gigs. I just completed my first 'project' - doing product reviews. We'll see how legitimate it is after the 15th - they're supposed to bank in the pay then. I'm also doing very well with Real Voices. So far, I've gotten 3 bonuses for 3 weeks in a row. Cross my fingers and hope to get the other 2 as well. Then I can get 1k in total! (hish, stop dreaming, it'll jinx it).

The bad thing is I'm not winning bids from Helium, which if I do, would likely spell big bucks (lol, USD). I keep getting rated 2nd, dammit.

And then there's my job. Well, I've already gotten one part time actually, and it's actually my bad it's not doing so well - because I keep NOT showing for work. Again, Mr. Mithran has got to be the most patient man around - I'm still not fired - or he really needs people. On the other hand, I can't see to be able to stop snooping around for other available part time jobs as well. Right now, I've got 2 interviews pending, and I'm not sure if I should go or not, because it's December already and it's crunch time for assignments and exams, so these are really bad times...

Urghh... and the worse thing is, well.. urghhh... fuck it.